NITHAM ORU VAANAM

An open letter to the characters of Nitham Our Vaanam.

I wrote this letter right after the very first day show of this movie.

A story which speaks a MILLION lessons, reminds me of THOUSAND precious reasons to live life from FOUR characters within TWO beautiful stories to live ONE precious present life given to you.

Dear Meenakshi, you taught me to be strong no matter what life throws at you. The way you carried your life after the loss of your very loved ones, pain, struggles and suffering has all hit the very bottom of my heart.

Dear Veera, just like what you have told to Meenakshi, it was as if being told to me. You reminded me to always do what I love the most and never ever compromise anything or anyone when comes to my passion and dream.

Dear Mathi, you were the lite. Your energy, sense of humour and cuteness just kept going. You taught me to cherish the life which I am blessed with even after I know I might not be alive the next day. Cheat your death by living and cherishing this life till the very last breath that you would breathe.

Dear Prabha, no matter how much I tried to hold on to my tears, you just made me have my emotional breakdown at that moment. The way you have accepted your wife’s reality and the life as it is has just hit me that hard. That no matter what it is, no matter how much pain it could cost, if you never accept it, it will continue to hurt like hell. You taught me to accept the pain, heal and move forward.

Dear Shuba, you are that wonderer with the guts to roam around. Like you don’t just sit there! Go travel and learn life in this way. And in such, you are being guided to the life that are meant for you.

And,

Dearest Arjun,

It’s not only you that learned your life lesson or got the lifeline message from the two stories, but to everyone who are most likely to be in your shoe. And I am one of it.

Arjun might be imperfectly perfect in his point of view, he might be doing all right in his life, he was loyal to every single relationship he has got, and everything goes on smoothly. But you never know when life will be having turning points and redirections until you are forced to detach from everything, accept it as it is, heal and move forward.

Ultimately, to live a happy life is the only reason we are being sent here right! And for that, we are going through everything it has to take for the core purpose to be happy.

Being happy and being wholeheartedly happy are two different things I learned. If my wisdom could speaks, I will definitely want to be wholeheartedly happy.

A Letter To The Dearest One

To someone whom has a part of me with you,

I heard you, I felt you.

This letter is meant for you when you are battling the hardships.

This letter is meant for you when you are feeling low.

This letter is meant for you when things are not at your favour.

This letter is meant for you when no one is there to console you but my words are.

Because I believed that the words in this letter are more powerful

Because I believed that the words in this letter would make your soul feel better

Because I believed that the words in this letter would be the affirmations which you will tell to yourself

To The Dearest One,

I know you are not fine right now. Maybe you don’t feel like talking about it but whatever you are going through right now, remember you’ll get through it no matter how hard it is. And there’s nothing out there that could stop you from getting up again for you have been the strongest one. Because you have the ability to fall and stand again.

There are days when we forgot our own worth but all I wanna say to you is, you are worthy of each and every bit of happiness out there. And I meant it. You deserve it all and nothing can ever dull your shine. You got that, my dearest sunshine?

It’s not every time I asked you about the things going on with you but once I got to know something is not right, I’ll take whatever it is to make my dearest one to feel better. Remember seeing you sad, makes me sad. I’m never going to be okay too.

For the times when you wanna be alone, okay, I understand the space you needed. But just remember, you got me. Forever and always. Just like how I got you for each of my ups and downs. I am not leaving your side no matter what because you matter to me, to the infinity. Perhaps I can’t fix your problems or whatever has happened but my presence will be there with you to share your pain in silence, to listen to you and to lend my shoulder for you to rest. And once you are feeling better, I would fly away like the guardian angel with a heartfelt satisfaction.

To the dearest one,

If only I could scream to the world now, I would first say thank you to God to have made my life path to be crossed with a gem like you. Your presence matters and you are important to me and to the world. People like you are rare so don’t anyone dare to break his heart!

Just chin up and smile. Everything will be okay soon my dearest one.

Love,

From someone whom wants you to smile right now.

SILLU KARUPATTI

It’s just a randomly recorded movie which I watched and made me to realize and understand more about life and love.

This movie is love,
A complete love!
A very soulful movie and such a feel good one after a long time and I’m thankful for it.
I guess everyone should often watch this kind of movies these days.
Trust me, it’s a movie worth watching for more than once!

Maybe I liked this movie because I witness a part of myself in Madhu’s character.
Maybe I liked this movie because they highlighted the way life is for some group of people and thus it’s an eyeopening to everyone and especially the people around them. To be precise, a life journey which highlights love, trust, understanding, happiness, support, conflict, anger, pain, adulthood, marriage, parenting and status.

After all, it comes back to the definition which is life is all about the love we give to others.

And definitely not forgetting these words,
When there is love, there is life!

I don’t usually review movies like this to anyone or anywhere but somehow this movie made me to write.

Maybe we could realize and light up the hope of life by giving out LOVE!

The Peacock Poem

Dear precious creation of God,

Everyone admires your beauty,
Yet only you knows how will be the aches beyond your beauty.

Everyone loves your talent,
Yet only you knows about the uncomfortable moments you’ve gone through when you spread out your feathers just so perfectly and beautifully.

I don’t remember when the first time I saw you,
Yet I do remember what you made me feel.

When a huge crowd gathered to watch you, I noticed your fear at the beginning,
Yet you made a way for your fears to be your strength and never fail to give a spectacular performance.

When the crowd are watching and admiring each graceful steps of yours,
And I’m here at the back of the crowd far away from you, trying to come closer but can’t,
Yet truly proud for what you’ve gone through all this while and I’m here with great respect of who you are from the day I’ve been introduced to you.

You and me are different,
Yet I’m clueless on why my perception on you are way too far and too deep from the perception of other’s on you.

You and me are different,
Yet you’re always a precious creation of God and I’m always blessed to have witness you in this journey called life.

நீ என் உயிர் ஆதாரமே ❤

Poem by,
Yours truly,
Admirer by heart ❤

A LETTER TO THE HEAVEN

To Patti and Tata.. I love you

I lost a very important person in my life. Someone from the little circle of mine.
Patti, I lost you at the age of 21. The age when I’m getting to know what is life all about, the maturity phase, the good and bad more detaily and many more other things.

You know something Patti, to be honest, I feel happy and proud that I’d take a good care of you whenever you were with me. There was a time in my younger days when I loved you more than I love amma. There was a time you were everything to me. I don’t know why but you were there for me. There was a time I make tantrum and fight with everyone at home so that I can stay at your house and to be with you.

Time goes by, we all grew older. Tata left us. You got extremely broken. You couldn’t move on from the demise and I saw you suffering without him by your side. Just after a year passed, attai left us. You couldn’t move on from the aches, heartbreak, burden and loneliness. And you’re getting sick day by day. You’re forgetting many things day by day. You’re getting more emotional for each and everything.

I’m sorry I couldn’t do anything to change it. Sometimes I think back those good memories I had with you when I was young. I even think to bring that healthy and strong patti back because you was much more happier that time. Whenever you were with me, I remember that I’ll lie on your lap and always talk to you. I’ll always ask you to be happy because Tata surely wanna see you happy from up there. You’ll only nod your head and end up being emotional after thinking so much. And you made me cry during that time. All I did was to have you in my prayers each day. I prayed that you have to be strong and have a good health to go through all this. And we are all with you. I am with you. You don’t have to worry anything.

But now, you’re happy right up there. You’re with tata now as you wished. You actually don’t have to worry about anything now. You don’t need to do any household chores. Remember you always used to tell us that being born as a girl you can never escape from doing all this work. But now you escaped. Haha.
You don’t have to eat that countless tablets which you forced yourself to eat three times a day. You dont have to worry about house safety. You don’t have to look around for the room and cupboard keys everywhere when you misplaced it somewhere. Okay?

But,

Dear patti,

There’s other things also you have to know.
Your garden is going to miss you.(okay let me list down so that I won’t forget) Those colorful flowers, sugarcane, papaya, mango, avaraka, eggplant, chilli, nellika and especially betel leaf. They all going to miss you. There is no better person to take care of them other than you.
That house will never be the same without both of you. Each and every corner of the house has got the touch from both of you. Now, there’s only memories occupied in the entire house.

And,

I AM GOING TO MISS YOU.
I’ll miss you whenever I’m stress and feel like talking to you through phone.
I’ll miss you if I go to behind temple thiruvilla especially when pouring milk in the theekulli. Because you were by my side all the time. You prayed to pour milk every year in the theekulli right after my birth for some health reason. (Yes patti, Amma told me the story) I was blessed to have a Patti like you.
I missed that smile of mine when I was busy seeing customer at shop and then suddenly you and tata came in to shop with bags early in the morning and tell me that both of you are going to stay here for couple days.
I’ll miss massaging your painful leg.
I’ll miss to hear your voice on my birthday.
I’ll miss you both during Deepavali as I grew up celebrating with both of you on the eve and on first day.
I know it will be hard for me but I have to go through this right, Patti and Tatta.

But honestly, we are proud and blessed to have arranged a meaningful family gathering back in 2014 and that’s the best thing we did for both of you. No one could describe the satisfaction and blessings we’ve got on that day.

Dear Patti and Tata, we will always remember those advises given to us. Don’t worry anything about us. We will go through all this. And everything will be okay soon. I’ll be a good girl and will make both of you proud one day. Keep on watching from up there and bless us. Rest in peace patti and tata.

Love,
Your favourite grandchild.
24 Apr 2018

I wrote this on 24 April 2018, 3 days after you left me. A very close friend of mine consoled me during those days and I remember I told him that I’ll miss you the most on somedays and today is one of that someday.

I decided to publish this writing which has been saved in my note pad as I missed you today a little more than everyday especially during this festive season.