A Letter To The Dearest One

To someone whom has a part of me with you,

I heard you, I felt you.

This letter is meant for you when you are battling the hardships.

This letter is meant for you when you are feeling low.

This letter is meant for you when things are not at your favour.

This letter is meant for you when no one is there to console you but my words are.

Because I believed that the words in this letter are more powerful

Because I believed that the words in this letter would make your soul feel better

Because I believed that the words in this letter would be the affirmations which you will tell to yourself

To The Dearest One,

I know you are not fine right now. Maybe you don’t feel like talking about it but whatever you are going through right now, remember you’ll get through it no matter how hard it is. And there’s nothing out there that could stop you from getting up again for you have been the strongest one. Because you have the ability to fall and stand again.

There are days when we forgot our own worth but all I wanna say to you is, you are worthy of each and every bit of happiness out there. And I meant it. You deserve it all and nothing can ever dull your shine. You got that, my dearest sunshine?

It’s not every time I asked you about the things going on with you but once I got to know something is not right, I’ll take whatever it is to make my dearest one to feel better. Remember seeing you sad, makes me sad. I’m never going to be okay too.

For the times when you wanna be alone, okay, I understand the space you needed. But just remember, you got me. Forever and always. Just like how I got you for each of my ups and downs. I am not leaving your side no matter what because you matter to me, to the infinity. Perhaps I can’t fix your problems or whatever has happened but my presence will be there with you to share your pain in silence, to listen to you and to lend my shoulder for you to rest. And once you are feeling better, I would fly away like the guardian angel with a heartfelt satisfaction.

To the dearest one,

If only I could scream to the world now, I would first say thank you to God to have made my life path to be crossed with a gem like you. Your presence matters and you are important to me and to the world. People like you are rare so don’t anyone dare to break his heart!

Just chin up and smile. Everything will be okay soon my dearest one.

Love,

From someone whom wants you to smile right now.

Upside Down 🙃

Things do turn upside down at some point in our lives.
Sometimes it happens when we are away from our comfort zone.
Sometimes it happens when we are affected with the impact of painful moments in life.
Sometimes it happens when we are about to move on to the next phase of life.

When things turn upside down, we become frustrated and stressed out at the beginning. We are unsettled because our routine pattern is broken. But when the pattern is broken, something happens inside us. We are not who we used to be. We change socially, emotionally and mentally. It hurts initially yet we start seeing things differently.

Every time a pattern is broken, we fall to the ground. We start from zero. Like a child, we learn the new world with fresh eyes. We fall and rise again. And sometimes we rise to fall again. It’s okay. Just keep working on it positively.
While we keep working on it,
We become strong
We become creative
We bocome kind
We accept
And we evolve

Every pain you are facing now, is for the good of the great in you. Focus on the growth.

A letter to a heartbroken mother

**this letter was once written and intended to a mother whom was hurt deeply due to some reasons.

Maa, I can’t see you being broken like this because of your own family. Honestly maa, I’ve learnt many deep and valuable lesson about the way to keep up everything in its own best level.

Today you told me that it could be very depressing when a daughter can’t talk well to her own mother no matter how old the daughter is. And then you told me that “I have my husband and my children with me all the time to support me”.

At certain point, people are changing maa. They only see from their point of view. And above all everyone are being selfish sometimes. Some of them will never take the courage to stand on other people’s shoes and understand them. That neglected feelings will always make us feel bad maa.

I saw the aches you are going through when your own mother cannot understand you and didn’t stand by your side whenever necessary.

But don’t worry maa. I promise I will never let you down maa. You’ve no idea what I am learning indirectly from you. It’s really alot and I know there are many more other things to be taken care. I’m learning everything from you each day.

I’m sorry to hurt you by scolding you sometimes but honestly I did that because I love you. I scolded you because of the workload you’re doing and I can’t see you being tired.
And you know something maa, I just love the way you’re being as if you’re not tired and depressed at all before you are going to bed. You just did that without a single complain to any one of us but I know how it felt. And I definitely going to follow your footstep.

Life During Pandemic

It’s a curse or a savior?

For some, it brings happiness and for some, it brings aches.

For some, it brings a huge relief and for some, it gives a huge misery.

For some, it brings a beautiful attachment with loved ones and for some, it brings a painful detachment with the loved ones.

For some, it brings a pause button to look back at their life, for some it brings a reset button to amend their wants and needs and for some, it brings a continue button to keep on going to save the world.

For some, it gives a chance to keep in touch with our family members and for some, it made them to keep a few steps away from their families.

For some, it gives a chance to make more new memories and for some, it gives a chance to reminisce those old memories.

For some, it gives a chance to strengthen their dreams and for some, it weakens their dreams.

For some, it gives a chance to let out their breath freely and for some, it made them to hold on their breath deeply.

For some, they called it a freedom life and for some, they called a chained up life.

For some, it brings a pleasant experience and for some, it brings a life threatening experience.

It’s heartbreaking to listen to some people saying “If I go out I will die because of the virus and if I stay in I will die because of hunger”.

It’s heartbreaking to see some of the people are being stuck at their workplace and unable to go back home for a very long period.

It’s heartbreaking to see families are feeling miserable when one of their family members wasn’t there with them during this time.

It’s heartbreaking to see the front liners are being restless after working hard for almost the entire day.

It’s heartbreaking to see people are actually going through life which leads them to a bad mental health.

Here I’m praying to God that everything to be alright soon.
Here I’m praying to God that everyone across the world to be safe and sound.
Here I’m praying to God that we will realise, appreciate and value the nature God has gifted to us.
Here I’m praying to God that we all should practice gratitude for everything we are having now.
Here I’m praying to God that we all would start to take care ourself in order to take care others and also our Mother Earth.

Tough time don’t last, tough people do. Be strong everyone 💪🏽

SILLU KARUPATTI

It’s just a randomly recorded movie which I watched and made me to realize and understand more about life and love.

This movie is love,
A complete love!
A very soulful movie and such a feel good one after a long time and I’m thankful for it.
I guess everyone should often watch this kind of movies these days.
Trust me, it’s a movie worth watching for more than once!

Maybe I liked this movie because I witness a part of myself in Madhu’s character.
Maybe I liked this movie because they highlighted the way life is for some group of people and thus it’s an eyeopening to everyone and especially the people around them. To be precise, a life journey which highlights love, trust, understanding, happiness, support, conflict, anger, pain, adulthood, marriage, parenting and status.

After all, it comes back to the definition which is life is all about the love we give to others.

And definitely not forgetting these words,
When there is love, there is life!

I don’t usually review movies like this to anyone or anywhere but somehow this movie made me to write.

Maybe we could realize and light up the hope of life by giving out LOVE!

An open letter

To the guy whose parents showed red light to one of his career plan

I know that you are always trying hard to do something better in life. You came up with a business plan. I know that you’ve discussed about this to your parents. But it seems that they don’t agree with your idea and you don’t want to think more about it after that. And you are not talking well to your mom since that.

I understand what you are trying to do but maybe your mom need some time to agree with you. It’s not that she doesn’t want you to do something regarding business, it’s just that she’s worried about the outcome. She’s worried about the negative things that might happen if you go on with your idea. Definitely every mother out there don’t want to see their children to lose right. She might react like that because of this.

To the guy whom was once confused and struggled with his plans

Don’t worry, take chances to explain to her what you trying to do. Explain again. Tell her everything. Tell her that business means have both positive and negative outcome. Tell her that you’re confident with your plans and all and you will work hard for it. Tell her that you need her support and blessings before do something you wished to do. Give her some time and I’m sure she will understand soon. Either success or the other way, you just need your family to be your side. I believe that you will prove to everyone.

To the guy whom was going through some hard times

Please stop sighing when you think about yourself or the problems you have and facing right now. Think positively and don’t give up. It’s okay if you didn’t talk much with your family members for some time now but one thing for sure is you will be always the first person to be back of them if anything means right. You ask to leave this matter in your way. Okay, but I really hope you will be okay soon with all of them.
Appreciate those little moments when we are with them because we will never know what will happen next.

To the guy whom was going through some hard times

I’m still proud of you no matter what and always remember that. Listen, you know that I don’t like other people to talk bad or feel bad about you then definitely I don’t like you too feeling bad for your ownself.

To the guy whom was going through some hard times, you are a warrior!

I have no problem to cheer you up anytime and for anything. Remember I’ll be always by your side.
I just want you to be okay and feel proud with yourself too. And most importantly no matter what you decide to do in life just don’t give up. Be patient. Give a try and we will see the results after that. If it’s meant to be yours it will be yours no matter what.

Remember,

Every action you took reflects the attitude you have within you. This words are something very close to my heart.

Little Champs

Have you ever noticed that a child will always smile to you whenever you looked at them?
They don’t keep any hatred feeling or anger in their heart and most importantly they don’t play the ego game.

Yes, they cry, they show tantrum and sometimes they got on your nerves,
But at the end of the day,
All they’ve got is a pure and innocent heart treated with abundance of love.
Because a child’s heart is where the God lives. .

Life will always have something to teach you

There’s something beautiful in trying out new things all by YOURSELF, making mistakes and learning from it.
You gain experience both negatively and positively. And the moral support without being judged from our loved ones are merely important.

I registered myself in a running event. A kind of fun walk. It’s been a long gap since I joined into those runs or walks during my school days only. So it’s like almost 5 years of not participating in those events.

I tried to convince my parents and brother to join me before register but it seems that they don’t show interest. I need to consider their willingness too. So it’s okay. And the good thing is they don’t stop me from going by myself.

So I went there. And there were few things to consider and few things to make it as memories. And definitely I met the pros and cons.

The pros were…
I felt the courage which I gave to myself to do new things. I was literally self-motivated. There’s an urge in myself to do more of this things. I witness the beautiful sunrise of the day when I was jogging. I smiled more to strangers. And especially to those kind hearted people around me. Read the cons to know more about it.

The cons were…. (a long story)

My car tyre were hit into a pothole on a bumpy field when I was looking for parking.
Honestly, it wasn’t because of my carelessness but it was because of I didn’t realise at all the pothole there. The pothole was covered nicely with bushes and it was really unnoticeable.
Anyone whom used that way would have hit into it but it seems that I was unlucky that day.
There were three women whom also participating in the run just got down from their car and helped me.
I tried to raise the oil to drive backward and forward but it just simply never worked out.
Then there were two Malay men whom came with their family whom also participating just got down from their car. I approached them to help me. They tried at first but it seems difficult for them. Then came another two Malay men. So all four of them tried their very best to push and bring out my car from the pothole. Then those men put some stones and some small tree branches and plastics at the pothole to make other drivers aware. Those acts were salutable.
Without all of them I never knew what would have happened that time.
And the consequences from the incident is that tyre was flat. Those men informed me about that and also offered to help but the run already started.
I have no other choice then to park the car and walk to the field.
Those favours from the goodhearted people whom helped me early in the morning that day are truly appreciated. Especially those men, you people are too friendly and thank you.
Then after the run, I called my dad to come over to change the tyre. I prepared all the equipments he needs before he come. Then Appa and thambi came and changed it. And I’m back to home safely. I think I got to learn some ways to manage this kind of emergency.

I lost my lucky draw number and it’s a lesson learned for me.
Always be careful with each and everything directly and indirectly. Be aware of the surrounding.

I tried out new things and I made mistakes too. I’m grateful for both positive and negative part from this experience.

To the one who is struggling yet smiling, please take care of yourself!

Have a sit,
Take a deep breath.
I know you are tired
But I want you to
Ask to yourself
How are you lately?
Have you got some sleep?
Did you drink water?
Have you eaten?
Ask if anyone in your life is being toxic to you all this while or if you’re the one being toxic to them in anyway.

I know about the good heart of yours
And I also know the depth of it.
But you need to take care of yourself too.
Make sure you have a good sleep. Nothing is worth than that.

Do things that warm your heart like getting your favourite journal, painting, spending time with your pets or watching a movie or a match or eating an extra scoop of ice cream.

Do things that you’ve always dreamt of doing even if you’re bad at it.
All you need is twenty seconds of insane courage and something remarkable would come out of it.

Listen to your favourite songs including sad songs too. Cry if that helps. And cry if your heart is way too heavy. I know it won’t solve your worries but it would help you to feel lighter. Moreover, it’s the feeling that you’re expressing and embracing.

Healing takes time.
It’s as messy and raw it can get.
You’ll fall down and get up to fall again but don’t ever quit.
Take a hot shower and drink water.

Surround yourself with warmth, books, food and people who feel like sunshine.
If you think that you should spend time by yourself, then go on in your way.
If you think that you should stay detached with certain people including the closed ones, then go ahead.

Listen,
Your mental health is very important. Please take care of it and I meant it.
Practice calmness.
One breath at a time.
It’s okay to feel lost and stuck. This is what life about.
Finding things along the way even though it feels bleak.

No matter who you are and what you’re doing, know that I’m proud of you.
You don’t always have to achieve something great to be proud of yourself.
You can be proud of yourself for the little things like waking up and getting out of bed, walking more steps than yesterday or taking a step out of your comfort zone.
And even if you didn’t, it’s okay.
There are lot more days ahead.

Always have faith on the things you believed the most.
It will never let you down.

Just remember your worth.
That is going to be the thing that either makes you or breaks you.
Please go on the day with a light heart.
And if it’s night time, let tomorrow shine brighter than yesterday.

To the one who is struggling yet smiling, please take care of yourself.

And

You’ll be okay.
I promise.

2019

2019 was the year
I took many decisions
For myself
To be the better version of myself Even if it involves decision through pain, struggles and uncomfortable situations

I completed my diploma studies
I continue my degree studies
In the midst of a lot of confusions and uncertainty on my pathway

I knew I struggled a lot to cope up with it

I knew I was not being myself during those times
I knew I had a very hard time

But
I’ve never gave up on myself
I’ve never gave up on the beautiful souls in my life
I’ve never gave up on what I believe the most
I’ve never gave up on my passions

I knew I aren’t the girl with loud personality
I knew I aren’t the girl with a hyper and sensitive personality

But
I’m a quiet one with soft and understanding heart
And will never let my loved ones to look down with or without my presence

Maybe that was the time for me to make a decision
To prove to myself
To prove the things I loved and matters the most to me

Maybe that was the time for me
To be a better version of myself
To be a stronger version of myself
To built a soft yet bold heart within myself
To enhance my confidence
To spread the love
To spread the positive vibes

Maybe that was the time for me
To do new things in my life
Even with unhealed wounds
Even with shattered heart

I practice mindfulness
I meditate
I stay detached from almost everything

I seek peace wherever I go
I have faith in my life
I create and carry the good vibes in my heart

Thoughts played a major role in my life
Memo pad were flooded with my words

Maybe that was the time for me
To spread
My words
My love musings
My motivational quotes
My healing notes
My gratitude towards everything

Maybe that was the time for me
To let out everything
Through poetry
Through words from my heart

Maybe that was the time for me
To start work out on my long planned dreams
To create more artworks
To inspire others through my passion for arts

I’m still the same person to whomever knows me
Yet seeking a stronger and better version
A girl growing into a woman
A woman whom merely trust herself

Someone once told me this

You were the woman whom fall for the depth of something beautiful And these depth will never let you go just like that

Yes, I believed that.

I’m seeking the depth of my passion I’m clueless yet I kept going on
In the hope
That everything will be alright one day

I own nothing but gratitude towards God and Universe.
I’m thankful for everything happened I’m thankful for the pain
I’m thankful for the smile
I’m thankful for the memories
I’m thankful for the growth

I will continue to heal and at the same time be a spiritual healer for those in need
I will continue to carry the vibes of the beautiful souls in my life even without their presence as I need it the most and it helps me to grow into a stronger, beautiful and better person both in and out

The only one thing I believed the most during my good and bad times
And I say it to my heart and to anyone whom seek me

What is meant to be yours will always be yours

If it is meant to happen, it will happen no matter what the circumstances and situations you’re in.