This song is one of the most touching song dedicated to the strongest person on earth, MOTHER. I would say that among all the other songs (yes, I’ve a list of songs related and dedicated to mother in my playlist), this will be the one very close to my heart. Every lines from this song resides deeply within my heart and to be honest, when I first came across this song a few months ago, I cried. I cried my heart out hardly that night. Perhaps it’s because of I listened to it at the right time of these very phase of my life.
The name of this movie is Ram. I only knew the other song titled Aarariraro but never came across this particular song. I haven’t watch this movie yet but those songs are truly touching.
And I realised that all I need during my hard times was my Amma right beside me. It doesn’t mean that I ignored or avoided her all this while. NO AND NEVER. And neither my Appa. It was just that I needed her the most these days.
You must be heard that a girl will be always closer to her father more than her mother right. But in my life, it will be my Amma. I seek her for all my good and bad times. Sometimes I don’t story to her everything, but I simply seek her. Just to be with her. To be with her presence. Eventhough I don’t say out much to her whenever I have problems, I feel that when I looked at her or when I spend some time with her, I feel calm and I feel strong just with her vibes.
And that is why I need her the most these days.
One day I just wanna be like her.
One of the lines which goes,
Oththa sontham neeyirundhal pothum amma,
Moththa boomi enakkae thaan sontham amma.
Which means,
All I need is just one relationship, that is with you,
This whole world is mine!
Yes maa, this whole world will be mine in the presence of yours.
I’ve made mistakes. I’ve reacted the way I shouldn’t towards the closest ones.
But, she somehow taught me with different situations. It’s all what I’ve learnt indirectly from both my parents which will be a lifelong lessons for me. And I’m grateful for that.
Again,
There’s these lyrics of this song which goes
Thisai ellaam enakku irulaagi kidaikku,
Enggaiyo payanam thodaruthammaa?
Ennoda manasum pazhuthaaki poochu,
Sari seiya vazhiyum theriyala ammaa!
Suriyan odanjja pagal illa ammaa,
Aagayam marainjja agilamae summaa
Enna chuththi ennanamo nadakkuthe ammaa,
Kandatha ellaam kanavaagi poyidumaa?
Which means,
All the directions seem dark,
Where is my journey going on now?
My heart has broken into pieces,
I don’t know how to mend it!
If the sun breaks down, there’s no day,
If the skies disappear, the whole universe is a fallacy.
There are unexplainable things happening around me,
Will everything that was, go away as a dream, Amma?
I literally wanted to ask the same questions which have been in the lyrics to my Amma.
Because I felt it that way. I was exactly in the midst of confusion, pain and struggles both in and out of my own and of my family.
I’m still learning to handle things in life in the best way.
I listened to this song almost everyday till date and sometimes I kept on playing it continuously when anything hits me hard.
But at that moment, I wasn’t sure whether this song is trying to heal my heart or I need those lyrics to be heard?!
Every verse of this song ends up with questions. Perhaps life is a question right? Throughout this journey of life, we have a lot of questions which are yet to answer.
But life has taught us to keep going on its flow with faith, hope and believe. God knows what’s best for us. We do our part with the best we can while God will take care the rest.
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